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Hey Calyn, I've been seeing some things on here that you've been writing, and I've been hearing things Tyler and Beth have been saying about situations in the dorm rom... and i just want to know how you're feeling and doing right now. I'm really sorry if I've done anything to offend or hurt you, but I really am worried about you right now. I understand if you don't want to talk to me but I would like to be here for you and maybe even help out your situation a bit. Think about it, I'll be here.

At this moment things are pretty fine actually. Tyler’s pissed me off one too many times, and I’m just completely done with him. I had this idea (still do kinda) of just dissolving myself from everyone in the group of friends, because far too much drama has come from this group. Like: Tyler and Beth being clingy and annoying as fuck, the Danny/Ashley/Jordan triangle, and people disregarding your thoughts and opinions because you choose to still talk to Strahan, which isn’t a crime at all. I’m just kinda done with all of it, and want to move past it. I feel like just starting over in college would be best, but I don’t know. All I know is that all my roommates are being really childish, and I’m not about that. Nothing you have done in particular has offended me, it’s just I feel that trying to break off some ties while holding others would just spark even more needless drama. I’m still not 100% sure I want to do this, but at this point, I can do so at any time, and considering what’s been going on in the last few days, I’ve been considering it more and more.

Also, just going to put this out here, I love how Beth told you about this, and yet I haven’t talked to her since before I left for college. The only exception to that would be one comment she made to me during one of her Skype calls with Tyler, of which they were both going on about how lonely and sad my life is, and she commented on how I need to go out there and ‘get laid’. The fact that she was telling you about this but had never once talked to me about it tells me that either she doesn’t actually care about me at all as a friend, that once again this group is resorting to talking behind each other’s backs and gossiping (which is the reason I was so upset at everyone during both Post Prom and Anime Iowa), or both. I already knew that Tyler didn’t care, that was apparent a while back.

Overall, I’m doing fine right now, but I’m considering a lot of things. I’m not worrying myself over them though, I’m just letting whatever happens happens tbh. I got really upset yesterday, but I’m feeling pretty decent today, so we’ll see how things go. 

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